Nothing

When you are doing nothing, you tend to think of everything. 

Everything. That includes how silly you were for sending your first communion photo to your crush way back in elementary and how you answered the recruitment officer when she asked, "How do you see yourself ten years from now?"

Tonight, while listening to the sound of raindrops on the roof, I am again amazed of how time has twisted and turned my life. After graduation, I thought I would seriously pursue a single career. But I had a detour. A few beautiful detours, actually. Now, just right now, I'm awestruck with my realization that I still want so many things. That's why I started this post by saying,

when you are doing nothing, you tend to think of everything. 

It can be frustrating at times. Thinking of all those little steps you need to take to reach your i-can-die-at-this-instant moment can be frustrating. Sometimes, when people tell me, "Take things one at a time," I get pissed of. But every time I recognize there's no shortcut to achieving dreams, that line instantly becomes my best friend and all those people become my wise mentors. Oh, how fickle-minded I can be!

So what's the point of this blog? I'm not sure. I'm not really doing anything this time. That's why there's so many things I want to say. But you know what, I miss this: allowing my fingers to freely dance on my keyboard without doing much thinking. This is what writing should be, huh?

Hey, I might create major changes in this blog soon. I might transfer some posts to where they should be. I might delete some, though I'm not really sure about it. I might re-post my favorites, though I'm not sure about it, either. At this minute, what I'm only sure of is

when you are doing nothing, you tend to think of everything.